No Man's Land

I do my own vitals and pretty often. Daily at least. It surprises me that my blood pressure remains normal. My heart rate can race after fighting with Jason but that is normal I guess. We have been here since Saturday. Saturday the ambulance picked him up with no courtesy call that they were on their way, and I lost it. I wanted to crucify the rehab and to crucify the hospital. I'm used to a particular way of handling at the rehab. It's a community based atmosphere and this disease has created such a manic paranoia in me that I have to be in control of every moment of Jason's care less I lose it- big time. M