72 Hours Sans Sleep

I don't remember the last time I slept. There have been a series of long blinks but my legs feel like noodles and under my eyes look like someone smudged black ink. We spent 2 days in the ER. ER is short term, never handling someone who comes in with standing meds etc, typically those people are moved quickly. Unfortunately Jason missed meds and meals and so did I. My blood pressure is high. I know because my headache does not go away and my ears feel full of pressure. Hopefully it will go away soon. Being tagged out finally. My mom and Jason's Grandmother are coming to sit with him. Have to go home and try to live real life. My boss has asked for somethings so I have to make that man happy. My kids need their momma and bills have to be paid. I won't lie I was a little delirious at some point last night. The line between real and fantasy kind of blurred. I was not sure if I was married and had other children, and I even questioned what day it was. I need coffee. I need sleep. Jason needs his 2nd round of IVIG today, the first of two flooding his system last night and in a few hours we are going to douse him again. This disease burned all its chances to leave peacefully- now I want IT DeAd, It's Mother Dead, It's Father Dead, It's Cousins Dead....