I'm Used To It By Now...-Telepopmusic

I was told about this stage. Where he is right now in the disease. It is a double edged sword of course. This part means we are definitely nearing the end. This part means there are some more things to come. Honestly, when they told me about it in the back of my head I rolled my eyes and sucked my teeth, "not my son", I thought to myself. But the thing that I have to keep reminding myself is: this is NOT my son. His body is being used as a vessel for this Maldita disease that has no mother. This insidious parasite of a virus is using my son to do its bidding. Like winter this year, it is leaving my son like a lion scraping its talons anywhere it can in his inflamed brain and forcing reactions from him that are nothing characteristic of who he is. It has won some battles over Jason, burning images into my brain that I will forever have to rationalize out. Scarring me as his mother and thankfully only me. Because the love I have for my son will never waiver, it will never fail no matter what this disease tries to make him do. I will never form an opinion against my son for anything that happens because he is my child, my baby, my life.

We will get past this part and as sick and sad as this will sound, I am glad we are here. It's just confirmed we are nearing the end. Jason is "emerging" from his state. He has shown up in short bursts where he has been able to text, or talk or play with Samantha and Tristan. But now he is on the cusp of it being longer and more permanent. He is coming out of the coma like trance he has been in and this stage means the coming out will continue until it is eventually permanent and he is back to normal. Jason will get better and be 100%. This is just temporary.