The WaterWorks

I'm a mess. I always have been. But every couple of days I have to run to the bathroom and bite down hard so that I don't wail out loud and cause a scene at work. Do you know how hard it is to do that? Do you know how fucking hard it is to feel your emotions pounding at your chest walls for release and you having no choice but to hold them back because you can't cause a scene ??

My Jason! My Jason! My beautiful Jason is finally going to have his trach taken out! They are closing the hole in his throat and he just gained yards at being normal again. 

I can't stop the tears from falling. So many times I thought this day would never come! My makeup is fucked up. I don't want anyone to ask me what is wrong because I just want to cry the tears of relief and agony and the emotions of FINALLY!!! 

Finally!!!

They are closing the hole in his fucking throat! Jason is being decanulated!!!